I don't have a title for you today.
Hi Sweetie.
Nope. No mean things today. I'm all about the love. Fucker. There you go. Last weekend was Matt's bday, which I'm sure you knew. I know you were there with us (I felt the slap on my ass when no one was looking ;) ) We were all out of hand. You'd be sooo proud! (There are pictures that I don't even remember being taken that night. Damn I looked good. Drunk, but good.)
Matt's girlfriend Erica is a good girl. I like her a lot for him. She makes him SO damn happy its giving me a cavity. He deserves it. I've never really approved of any of his girls at least not for anything more than comic relief for me...but this one I do. If you had a hand it it, thank you! (From me as much as Matt.)
I wanted to thank you from me too. I kind of met someone. (Which I'm sure you know...I mean you see EVERYTHING!) I don't know that anything will happen with him, actually, I'd be suprised if it did...but thanks for showing me that the connection is possible again and letting me have it - if only for that one night - He's a nice guy. I hope at the very least we can be friends. It came up early in the night why I was single and I told him about after losing you the first time and then you passing, I wasn't ready to be let my guard down for anyone else. He asked what happened and I told him how you were sick from the get go... he told me it takes a lot of heart to get involved when you know there isn't a future. I told him that you rarely get to choose who you fall for. It just happens. What I didn't tell him is that you will always be part of my future. I know that we talk every day and you laugh at the stupid shit I do, but I miss you. Part of me is looking to move to NYC for work and to be closer to Matt and Anthony (and Leydi and Meg...) part of me is looking to go for no better reason than its just time to move on from Albany. What do you think?
I was thinking of your nephews tonight...they are great kids and Chris and Mark have their hands full. You wouldn't want it any other way.
I'll be looking for you in my dreams tonight. Please be there... I need to talk. Matt can only convince me of so much.
I don't need to tell you that I love you and miss you...I'll tell you in my dreams.
Nope. No mean things today. I'm all about the love. Fucker. There you go. Last weekend was Matt's bday, which I'm sure you knew. I know you were there with us (I felt the slap on my ass when no one was looking ;) ) We were all out of hand. You'd be sooo proud! (There are pictures that I don't even remember being taken that night. Damn I looked good. Drunk, but good.)
Matt's girlfriend Erica is a good girl. I like her a lot for him. She makes him SO damn happy its giving me a cavity. He deserves it. I've never really approved of any of his girls at least not for anything more than comic relief for me...but this one I do. If you had a hand it it, thank you! (From me as much as Matt.)
I wanted to thank you from me too. I kind of met someone. (Which I'm sure you know...I mean you see EVERYTHING!) I don't know that anything will happen with him, actually, I'd be suprised if it did...but thanks for showing me that the connection is possible again and letting me have it - if only for that one night - He's a nice guy. I hope at the very least we can be friends. It came up early in the night why I was single and I told him about after losing you the first time and then you passing, I wasn't ready to be let my guard down for anyone else. He asked what happened and I told him how you were sick from the get go... he told me it takes a lot of heart to get involved when you know there isn't a future. I told him that you rarely get to choose who you fall for. It just happens. What I didn't tell him is that you will always be part of my future. I know that we talk every day and you laugh at the stupid shit I do, but I miss you. Part of me is looking to move to NYC for work and to be closer to Matt and Anthony (and Leydi and Meg...) part of me is looking to go for no better reason than its just time to move on from Albany. What do you think?
I was thinking of your nephews tonight...they are great kids and Chris and Mark have their hands full. You wouldn't want it any other way.
I'll be looking for you in my dreams tonight. Please be there... I need to talk. Matt can only convince me of so much.
I don't need to tell you that I love you and miss you...I'll tell you in my dreams.
posted by Court at 8:47 PM
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